Finding Your Happiness

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What’s up, what’s happening, fam? I’m just going to go ahead and apologize for this post, because it’s not going to be fun, happy or inspiring. This post is to make myself think about my own life and where I’m headed, and maybe it will do the same for you.

Hap•py /’hapê/ (adjective) – Feeling or showing pleasure or contentment.

Feeling OR showing pleasure or contentment. I find those two words very different. How do we know when we are truly happy? How do we become happy, when we’re not? How do you show happy, without feeling it? Happy is a confusing term for me. I believe in happiness, but struggle to find it somedays. “Nick, you are always happy and in a good mood!” I don’t believe Nick ever gets sad or angry.” “It’s truly impossible for you to be upset, Nick.” WRONG. I get mad, I get frustrated, I get overwhelmed, I get embarrassed just like everyone else. I hide it well, because what’s the point in bringing someone else’s mood down with you, right?

Having a conversation with a good friend last night, and the topic about high school was brought up. I’m sitting here, still trying to process it. The words “I don’t miss high school, but I miss the simplicity of it all” came out of my mouth. If that’s not the most generic and cliche thing you’ve ever heard, then I don’t know what would be. I started thinking about who I was in high school, and what I stood for. I was the kid that talked himself through any and everything. I never drank or smoked, and I went to church every time the doors were open. Now I find myself in a blur most days. What happened last weekend? Couldn’t tell ya, probably just sat around the house, and watched TV? I’ve become lazy, and interdependent on other things making me happy. (Which most of the time doesn’t work anyway.)

I’ve been told before, “You seem different” or “It seems like you’ve changed.” Those two sentences can throw me into, basically, a black hole of sorts. I never know how to take that? Good change? Bad change? Should I spend forever trying to think about how they meant it? Should I not? It’s hard, because I look back and I think to myself like, yeah of course I changed. Everyone changes, it’s normal. I know I have changed, but I don’t know that I’m a better person for it. I sometimes think that I’m rude, or stand-offish, but I don’t mean to be. I try to go back sometimes to try and find who I was, but at the same time, I know that I’ve grown. The problem with changing, is that I don’t know that I’m okay with how I changed.

I’m going to be a Junior in college starting in two weeks, and that’s so unbelievably scary to me. If I didn’t have my friends, and the people I surround myself with, I wouldn’t know how to do some of my favorite things. I wouldn’t know how to go on roadtrips with Brooke and Kailey. I wouldn’t know how to have a bromance with my roommates. I wouldn’t know how to have a 30 second dance party with Haleigh?  I wouldn’t know how to be a good parent, because of my grandparents and mom. I wouldn’t know how to live my life properly, because they make it the best. How do I find my happiness? Some me time, my family and friends, and a smile. Those things won’t make life perfect, but they help along your way.

I don’t want you all to think I’m depressed or something, because I’m not. Just trying to find my place in this world with everyone else. 🙂

If I can do it, you can do it.

-The Halfrican

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Where Have I Been?

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What’s up, What’s happening?! Y’all it has been a hot minute since I have posted anything! What can I say, I’m a slacker who loves to nap. Can’t help it, can’t change it, ha! Anyway, I know it’s been a few months, so I’m going to update everyone on what my life has been like since I last posted! And awaaaaaay we go!

photo (10)Well to start things off, I am finally finished with my Sophomore year of college! It’s surreal to think that I’ll be a Junior when I return in the Fall! Before I finished I had a lot of things do towards the end! One of my favorite things that I got to do was a mini internship/ job shadow someone for a full day for one of my classes. I got paired with a woman named Natalie at Full Media – Chattanooga. Full Media is a internet marketing company that takes on small-medium sized companies and expands their online site revenue throughout the internet! It was one of my favorite experiences yet! Everyone there was so friendly and willing to take time out of their busy schedule to show me the ropes of internet marketing, google analytics, and creating content for their clients! I learned a lot while being there, and I am very grateful for that!

photo (11)After finals were over, I took about a week to hibernate and re-energize for this upcoming Summer! I spent some time creating new memories and having a great time with two of my favorite people in the whole world! I only have a handful of people who I trust and care for more than anything, and these two are near the top of that list! I have been friends with Brooke & Kales literally since like Kindergarten! When we say besties for the resties, WE. MEAN. BUSINESS.

photo (12)Soooo, then this happened. My cousin got married a couple of weeks ago at Camp Dixie in Soddy Daisy, TN! I’m so glad the rain stopped just in time for the ceremony, because it was wonderful! My cousin, Garrett, was all I could’ve asked for in a cousin and a best friend when we were little. I still remember the days of playing hide-n-go seek in the house, killing it at Donkey Kong 64 on the Nintendo, and asking each other’s parents if the we could spend the night and play pokemon all night long! I’m sad we don’t talk as much as we used to, but I am very happy for him, because he is happy, and that’s all that matters in life anymore.

photo (13)This past week I haven’t done much (except for getting a new puppy that you can read about in the Puppy Love tab!) But, Carie’s “Bentley’s Smiles for Miles 5k” was a couple of days ago, and it was a success! The race was in dedication of Carie’s son, Bentley, who was diagnosed with Spinal Muscular Atrophy (SMA). Carie has spent countless hours trying to make sure everything went right, and even when things went wrong, she had it all under control! She is such an inspiration to everyone that she comes in contact with and then some! Carie is currently on a medical mission trip in Haiti, and I know she would appreciate all the prayers she can get, so please be praying for her time spent in Haiti, and all of the people that she is able to help.

That’s all for now! I’m so excited to be out for Summer break, and I promise I will write more often  now! You guys have a great week! Byyyyyyeeeeee!

-The Halfrican

College

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What’s up, What’s happening?! So, the other day I was reading around and I found a quote that sums up everything about being in college. I go to UT Chattanooga and I love it here, but sometimes I miss home. I read this quote, and it gave me hope that one day it will all be worth it.

“College. Getting a good education, taking advantage of the situation and here to change the nation.”

Being in college is so stressful. You’re up all night trying to get homework finished, and on the go all day to do everything else. The atmosphere is so fast-paced here, and sometimes it’s really hard, but I would never trade it for anything.

The opportunities that come along in college are unreal, and the friendships that I have made are easily my favorite thing about college, and I am forever grateful for everyone I have befriended. I truly believe that people that don’t go to college are missing out on a great experience!

I hope to graduate with my bachelors degree in Communications with an emphasis in Public Relations, minoring in English: writing in two years! Who knows where The Lord will lead me after that, but I know wherever it is, I will be happy. “It’s the little things..”

Very thankful for all of you here in Chattanooga, as well as back home! Hope you guys have a fantastic week! Byyyyyyeeeeee!

-The Halfrican

Spring Break

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What’s up, What’s happening?! SO, today is St. Patrick’s day! Which means it’s one day closer to Spring! I am so ready for Warmer weather, it’s ridiculous!

Anyway, I know I have been absent for quite some time, but I have a valid reason! IT WAS SPRANG BREAK! For SB I went to Myrtle Beach in South Carolina with some guys, and it was pretty awesome! We had a great 5 days away from stress! I’m currently jealous of everyone who is on SB this week, because I wish I could just relive that week, and never have to worry about school again.. But really.

Well, right before I went on SB, I got a notification on my blog! http://rosetintedrambles.wordpress.com/ had given me The Liebster Award!

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Obviously, you don’t know what that means, because I didn’t even know what it meant! BUT, after a few dates with my girl, Google, I figured out that it is basically a appreciation award for new bloggers! It’s kinda like your third grade teacher giving you a gold star on your test! I just want to say thank you to everyone who reads, and a special thank you to Rose-tinted Rambles (everyone should check out their blog!)

Uhm, I think that about does it.. Thanks for reading today and I hope you check out next week’s post! Have a wonderful week! Byyyyyyeeeeee!

-The Halfrican

Bucket Lists

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What’s up, What’s happening?! I recently thought of a couple of things I would love to do before i die someday, and then I realized I don’t really have a bucket list so I’m going to make one!

I know most people’s bucket list are extremes that will most likely never happen, but my list is going to be more realistic, at least I think so. Some of you may want to go sky diving, bungee jumping, or other ideas to fall directly to your death, but I don’t think I’ll go that route.

So here’s the list of my top bucket list ideas!

#1– See Justin Timberlake in concert! I’ve heard his show is so good, and he’s my favorite musician, so I couldn’t think of a better idea than to see him!

#2– Ride in a hot air balloon!

#3– Graduate from UTC and have a job lined up, and waiting for me! This may sound corny, but I can’t wait to start working daily in the profession that I chose, instead of a fast food restaurant!

#4– To reach 10,000 views on this blog one day! I know that’s a little high, but I think I can do it! I think you guys will help me do it! I’ve already reached over 1,000, so what’s 9,000 more!!

#5– To visit a foreign country in the next two years! I want to be able to say I have left the country before I graduate college!

#6– Interview someone famous! Do you realize how cool it would be to be able to say that I’ve interview like Emma Stone, or High Jackman, or even Melissa McCarthy?! Y’all, I’m going to make this happen one day!

#7– Hawaii. Plain and Simple.

#8– Go on a cruise! (I think this one may be happening soon, so HOLLA!)

#9– Ride in a helicopter!! I’ve always wanted to do that ever since I was like 5!! (Hopefully, it won’t be for health reasons!)

#10– Find the love of my life, and hope one day I can be a dad. I was raised mostly by my grandparents, and if my wife and I can be half the parents my grandparents were to me, then I think we’ll be okay. 🙂

Thanks for reading today! I hope you start reading every Tuesday when I put up a new post!! Love you guys, and hope you all have a wonderful day!

-The Halfrican